Blindfolded and Swinging: My 8th House Era
I realized in therapy that I had a fear of rejection so much so that I would do anything to avoid being rejected. And it was shown to me that I have been adjusting my behavior and making decisions based on this most of my life. I was unconscious of this for years. Now that I’m aware, I can face that shadow. I’m in my 8th house era.
As I prepare for Venus retrograde in the sign of Scorpio, I am awake and ready to navigate the changes that are already showing up. Scorpio is the natural ruler of the 8th house. 8th house work during a Venus and Mercury retrograde with Mars square the two feels like being blindfolded, spun around and around, handed a stick and left swinging at air, hoping to hit the piñata.
Scorpio is the sign of hidden depths, like the spy and the ninja who move in the dark. It’s the master of hiding, which is exactly why it knows every hiding place, including the ones we use on ourselves.
Venus retrograde in Scorpio stirs up whatever we’ve kept hidden, even from ourselves. It may feel dizzying, but you’re not alone. For me, it is the fear of rejection. For you, it might be something else. Scorpio might not be asking us to hit a piñata but to investigate inward, to look at what we’ve been hiding and who we’ve been hiding it from.
Here are questions to sit with this retrograde.
What would I choose if I weren’t afraid?
What have I left unsaid because I was afraid of how it would land?
Where am I swinging at air, pushing to fix or break things instead of pausing to understand them?
I’m in my 8th house era. It’s dizzying some days, but I’m awake now. I’m sharing this because I don’t think I’m the only one swinging at air right now. If any of these questions stir something up for you, be gentle with yourself as you uncover what’s been hiding.